This right here is a lesson that we ALL learn, re-learn, un-learn, and evolve into at different parts of our lives.
Regardless if it’s in your 20’s, 30’s, 40’s or 70’s you will have to face this lesson as part of your ascension process. Possibly multiple times.
For me, I finally faced it this past Spring. This was my main co$id lesson. It sucker punched me in the face, in one of the most shocking ways, and tbh holy moly, did it ever feel good.
It was the EXACT moment I decided to end that element of my ‘people-pleasing-over-loving and ever-extending self.
I’m over it.
One thing we do in the Soul Shaker program is identify your self-sabotaging tactics. Its no irony I put this is at the beginning, middle and end I needed to face it again too. Right before my blessed June group.
It’s my level of genius and I will pretty much have it in your level of comfort in record timing. It’s soooooo good to have it identified so we can transmute it through the sacred art of allowance. That’s my medicine. My Alchemy.
Repost by @alex_elle At one point in time, self-abandonment made me feel safe and seen. I picked up shrinking and staying small at a young age. There were so many childhood wounds that kept me emotionally hostage in boxes that didn’t belong to me. I was accustomed to “playing it safe” so not to disrupt the flow of others. I learned, early, to be seen and not heard. I thought that’s how life was supposed to be even well into my adulthood. Deciding to shift away from that toxic, dangerous, and shrinking narrative was such a challenge. Not being my whole self was ingrained in me—but I had to make a choice. I had to choose myself and to walk intentionally in alignment with my purpose. I can’t say I was fully sure of what that purpose was all those years ago, but I knew staying stuck in unhealthy cycles and playing it small wasn’t going to lead me to where I wanted to go.
This hard truth and reminder to self is something I come back to often. It’s something I wrote in depth about in my new book, After the Rain. It’s something that leads me back to myself when I feel like I’m slipping... ...